Back from the NFR. Time to be selfish
I’m doing something I’ ve never done. The month of October I did the Whole30; I didn’t touch carbs, dairy, sugar, or lentils for 30 days. It was tough. But with being at the barn all hours of the day, my diet started to consist of junk food I would never touched which made me exhausted which made me turn to energy drinks which would keep me up for a few more hours before I crashed for a couple of hours in bed and woke up the next day to do it again. I decided one night I could no longer live this way so I started the Whole30. After I got over the initial slump, I started to feel great. I lost 12 pounds and felt my best. However, my birthday rolled around and while I still stay away from fast food and energy drinks, my diet went back to poor and I gained all 12 pounds back. So what did I do? I went back to work. The month of November I filled 11 stalls. I drowned myself in work and horses and forgot about myself again. So here we are in December and I’m making a change. For starters, I sent home horses. This month I’m down to 7. Then I took myself on a vacation. I went to Vegas and hung out with some of my favorite people in the world. Tomorrow, I’m getting a gym membership. I’m focusing on mb and making her the best possible version of herself. Because she’s important. I met a guy in Las Vegas this weekend. A quiet 21 year old from Washington who struck up conversation with me at the Casey Donahue Band concert. Over the singing and loud instruments asked me what my goals in life were. It’s not very often that I’m stumped for words but in this moment of wild chaos in Las Vegas, Nevada, I was. After some thinking, I started laughing and said, “I honestly don’t know. At this point I’ve already accomplished all the goals I set out to because I never thought any of them would happen.” So, I’m taking the rest of this month to create some new goals. In 2 months I’m moving a thousand miles away to fulfill another dream and to, again, focus on mb. The Whole30 was hard. Gaining weight is hard. Decreasing my income is hard. Going to the gym will be hard. But do you know what’s harder? Being unhappy. Being unfulfilled. Being anything other than yourself. So this month, it’s about what mb wants. What mb needs. Getting exercise; eating right; riding my own horses; getting sleep at night; watching movies on the couch. Why? Because she’s important. Here’s to Mondays
